Scarce

Posting will be scarce.
Life is crazy.
Three little littles.
Horizontal Husband.
But come back soon for a big announcement.

Totally Worth It

So I went out for another walk/run today to add another 3.7 miles to the total for my Joggermom Marathon. (Bringing the current total to 15.5 miles.) And had a conversation with my 2 year old that made all of this worth it.


Donovan : Mommy, why are we going for a walk?
Mommy : Because mommy needs to exercise.
Donovan: Mommy, can I exercise too?
Mommy: Sure Donovan, that's a great idea.
Donovan: Kay mommy, me exercise like you.


I know that it doesn't seem like a big deal. But to me, it totally is.
Because one of my biggest motivations for getting healthy and losing the weight is to set a good example for my kids.
So that they don't grow up fighting the sedentary lifestyle that I grew up with.
So that hopefully, they don't have to struggle with their weight, like I always have.
So the fact that my 2 year old wants to exercise, regardless of the reason, makes all of this totally worth it.


My heart is so full.

What makes you awesome? Friend Makin' Mondays

For those of you that are new here, occasionally I partake in Friend Makin Monday, hosted by Kenz at All the Weigh.


So this week we're supposed to say 5 things that are awesome about ourselves. How hard is that? 
I spend most of my days pointing out all of my bad qualities, so thinking of 5 good ones is going to be HARD!!
But totally worth it.


1.) I'm generous. A lot of times to a very uncomfortable fault, but nonetheless, I love to give. Gifts. Time. Whatever.


2.) I can make people laugh. You may not notice, but I have a seriously dry sense of humor. And occasionally I can get a chuckle or two from friends.


3.) I'm loyal. Make me your friend and you won't regret it. I will do anything for my friends. And these days true friends are few and far between.


4.) I'm responsible. That means that you can totally count on me. To show up to work on time, to get the job done, to do the right thing.


5.) I'm honest. Again, sometimes to a fault. The things that I say aren't always what you want to hear, but I mean them. All of them. And sometimes that means that people don't like my very much, but I'm okay with that.

Fail

I spent much of last night and blog time today trying to beautify my blog. To no avail. Sorry peeps, you're stuck with same old boring stuff for now!
I'll figure it out at some point.
Until then, enjoy the green.

Monday Motivation

Who am I?

I am a child of God.
I am a wife.
I am a mother.
I am a daughter. A sister. A friend.
I am a nurse.


I am also the fat girl. The fat mom.
The mom that yells at her kids. That scolds them for doing things that all kids do.
The mom that wishes she wasn't that mom. That dreams of children running through rainbows with happy laughter and sweet smiles. 
The mom that dreams of pigtails tied with ribbons, and little boys dressed in pinstripes. Adorned with perfect, obedient smiles.


I am not the mom that has perfectly behaved children, who still manages to get dinner on the table and keep the hardwood floors clear of debris.


I am just me. An overweight woman trying to make things make sense everyday. Trying to set a good example for my children. And failing. Every day, with some mistake. Some poor choice.


I wish that I could say that I am a success story. But right now, I am not. My story is still being told. With chapters being put on hold as life gets in the way.


All I know is that I love my kids with all of my heart. I want more than anything to be a good mom. To be a good wife. To be a good daughter. To be a good person. And at some point, to be that success story.


The one that you guys are all rooting for. The one that you guys encourage. The one that I know is inside of me.


Happy Mother's Day!!

Lookie Here

Pretty cool, eh?
It's a wall hanging for all of my medals and stuff from races. (Cause, you know, I have so many)
Husband designed it for me.
Stay tuned to find out where you can get one too!

Wahoo's 5K

So, over the weekend, Husband and I ran a 5K.
Now I know that not every race can be great.
But this one? Not.good.at.all.

(here we are before the race.)

First of all, I woke up in the morning feeling like dirt. Either that, or what i would imagine one feels like after getting hit by a truck.
Totally gross.
But I sucked it up and got ready, and figured that if all else failed, at least I could walk some of the race.


We got to the race and got ready to go, and I just was not feeling it.
When we started, I tried to set up my Nike+ so that I had an idea of my pace, but because it was a brand new phone and I hadn't yet set up my sensor, it was picking up everybody's signal, so it wouldn't register.


I ended up running the first mile or so, and then walked for a little bit. I had a hard time finding my pace, and my breathing was kind of funky.
So I kind of ran/walked the rest of the race.


So disappointing.


I started Couch 2 5K about a year ago. You'd think by now I could run the whole thing.
But no. I did finish at least, and I did beat the time of my first official 5K (which was last July) but by no means did I PR. 
Which I was kind of hoping for in the back of my mind.
Way in the back.


I didn't do so well, but Husband? So proud...

Monday Motivation

A long way to go

The Joggermom marathon is in full swing. It is almost halfway through the month, which means that theoretically, I should be half way through the mileage.
Um, I'm not.
I did add to my total today with a walk/run (notice that I put walk first) while pushing both boys in the jogging stroller. But oh-my-gosh those boys are heavy! I'm guessing all together with children and stroller I was pushing about 80 pounds. Uphill. both ways. in the snow. barefoot.
Could I complain any more? (yes, probably. But I'll save you the drama.)
Anyway, I logged another 3.6 miles this morning to make my grand total... 8.7miles.
Totally not half way.
I guess I have some catching up to do!
Because today I got an email saying they added a new prize.
A Mountain Buggy stroller.



And while it won't work for me, because of the whole thing about me having more than one kid that still needs the stroller, I kind of want to win it anyway.
To sell so that I can buy an iMac bless someone else.

17.5 miles left!!