This just happened

I need some serious motivation up in this place.
I feel gross.
And so sedentary.
And the fact that I am still wearing maternity pants? Totally unacceptable.
So I gave myself a little kick in the pants.


This just happened.

I better get on it! 
Going from not running for the past 9 months to a half marathon in 8 months is going to be hard work. 
But mommas gonna do it!!!!

Insta-Friday

I'm linking up with Jeannett over at Life. rearranged. because her blog is awesome and her heart is even more amazing. And because it's fun.


I have Instagram on my phone, which I totally love. It's like facebook or twitter, but with pictures. Fun.


So every week you get to see my life via my Instagram pictures. You know you want to.

 The 5 year old donated her hair to locks of love. 10 inches of it.
Bye bye long, beautiful, thick, tangly hair.
Hello more time in the mornings.

While we were there, the 21 month old got a hair cut too.
Apparently the tween missed the memo on the surfer cut that we were going for and opted for a Bieber cut instead. Gross.

Cuties for $1.99. Snacks all week. Yum.

Totally not diet food fare, but the Pioneer Woman Chicken Spaghetti? De.lic.ious.

This guy? Makes me smile. Alot. A lot.

Because my diet has been not exactly healthy lately I've had to share everything I eat with the littles. But this snack? All to myself.

Just like that

It feels like yesterday that I gave birth to baby #4.
But just like that, baby girl is now one month old.

It feels like yesterday that I promised to come back and blog more about my life and my journey.
And just like that, it's been over a week and I've posted nothing.


And two weeks ago I stepped on the scale and saw that I had lost about 15 pounds of my pregnancy weight. Yay!
Today, I stepped on the scale to find out that I GAINED 4 of those pounds back. Just like that.


How is it that time goes by so stinking fast? I feel like everything is a blur and I can't focus on anything right now. It's super frustrating. My life has resorted to lists. If it isn't written down it isn't getting done.


And I just feel like I'm buried right now.
Under responsibility.
Excess weight.
Time.


I would love to snap my fingers and have some of the burden lifted. 
Just like that.

Do you pin?

So over the past months, while I've had nothing better to do than bake a human, bake cookies, and gain back all of the weight that I worked so hard to lose last year, I discovered pinterest.


If you don't pin, you totally should.
I originally just started out looking for craft projects that I would totally do, you know in all of my spare time.


And then it dawned on me that I could use it for so much more.
To find new healthy meals.

Source: letsdishrecipes.blogspot.com via Kendra on Pinterest

Fitness inspiration.

Source: Uploaded by user via Candy on Pinterest

Even fitness inspired crafts!

Source: etsy.com via Kendra on Pinterest

If you don't have an account yet, you should totally get one. I'd be happy to send you an invite! And you can follow me, my username is totallyturtle. 
Just don't judge all of the yumminess that I have pinned.
I sort of have a sweet tooth.

Here I Am

So here I am, back from the abyss of unmotivated pregnancy.
I've spent the past 9+ months baking, birthing, and feeding this little one.

But I'm back.
Wanting to get back on the proverbial bandwagon and get back in shape. 
To lose the pregnancy pounds and then some.
To start blogging again to keep myself accountable. 
To have a sense of fellowship, even if its only with my keyboard and the words on the screen, with someone else who is going through the same thing.


This time things will look different.
I have FOUR kids now. And they are my world.
So I'll probably talk about them more than I did before.
And I'll probably babble about the rest of my life more too.
Because I am more than just my weight.
More than just this journey.
And I want this to be about all of me.


Let's get on it!!

Slacker

I am a slacker.
Total slacker.
On most days you can find me getting out of bed at the very last minute to hurry my kids off to preschool, only to come home and do... nothing. Or to stroll the malls looking at all of the things that I wish I could have.
I have a list a million miles long that needs to get done.
But I have zero focus, and even less motivation.
My husband has been wonderful, and picks up the slack where I've been lacking. (Which is, um, everywhere)
But needless to say, I eat what I want, and have often turned to baking as a coping mechanism.
Baking things with a pound of butter.
I'd like to say that I'm trying to focus my life on something outside of myself right now.
But I can't.
Thus starting the downward spiral of decreasing motivation and lack of coping skills that currently define my life.
I can only pray that it will all be over in about 6 weeks, when baby number four finally decides to show up.
And then I'm back on the bandwagon.
But with bigger and better things planned.

Me. At a Water Park.

We have a water park by our house that has been around since I was a teenager.
I used to avoid it in high school because it meant that I had to walk around in a bathing suit with all of my less chubby friends.
I'd gone a couple of times, but not quite as much as my Husband.
He had a season pass almost every year, so he has great childhood memories of summer days at the park.
I kind of just assumed that our kids would grow up spending their days there as well.
Until the word came that it was closing due to an endlessly increasing land lease.
So we scored some passes (for free) for one last trip to the water park.
We took the big kids (who are 3 and 4), and left littlest man at home.
And I spent the whole day in my bathing suit.
As in walking around, uncovered, in my bathing suit.

And I was a little bit uncomfortable.
But for the most part, proud of myself for who I am now.
Because although I know that it was not a pretty sight, I didn't really care as much.
I was there to let my kids make a memory.
And that meant way more to me than worrying about how I looked at the water park.