Wednesday, February 9, 2011

For Her Sake

For the longest time I have identified myself as the fat girl. 


The only time that I haven't thought that way was right around my wedding, when I was the lightest I've been as an adult, still weighing in at about 175 pounds.


I've just come to accept that I will never like what I see in the mirror. 


I will always try to wear clothes that hide my body.


I will always try to take attention away from my weight.


But I'm really tired of trying to find worth in what everyone else sees.


I really want to look in the mirror and be content with the reflection.


Even if its not for me, I need to set a good example for her.



Because she listens, and she watches, and she remembers.


And I would hate for her to struggle with body image issues the way that I have. 


I think that she is so beautiful, in every single way.


And I need to know how to convince her of that, every day. How to encourage her to stand tall despite her height, how to show her kindness through her actions as well as her smile, and how to respect herself first, in every situation.


Because I don't really have enough experience with self love and respect to pass on any good habits.


So I'll try to learn. One day at a time. 


For her sake.


7 comments:

Shabby Chic Mom- Susie said...

Kendra, she is beautiful!! Our kids watch everything we do. At 20months im always shocked at what my son copies. Even when you dnt think they're watching.

Lanie Painie said...

I dunno . . . she looks kinda ornery ;-)

Adrienne said...

Awe that post made me tear up. You're right! Do it for her, and for you. :)

Kimberlynn said...

Well said sister!!!

Stacy said...

I know EXACTLY what you mean. Me and my hubby were talking about this yesterday. My stepdaughter (we have custody) is going to have a beautiful curvacious figure. She talks about her weight a lot since I've started exercising a lot and dieting. Her cousin is very tiny like my Sister-In-Law. I worry a lot that me having issues with my weight is going to cause her to worry about it. Her bio mom is also overweight as well. I also worry about her comparing herself to her cousin. I know her maternal grandmother made a comment that she hoped my DSD would get have my Sister In Laws figure. That's not gonna happen. I want her to be okay with the beautiful body she will have. I wish I had been. My Mom was tiny. I was taller than her in the 5th grade, wore a C cup then, and had a great figure. I didn't see it. I saw that I was way bigger than all the other girls.

Sorry to go on and on. This really is on my mind lately. Thanks for the wonderful post. Your daughter is so beautiful.

sim only plans said...

hey..I know EXACTLY what you mean. Me and my hubby were talking about this yesterday. My stepdaughter (we have custody) is going to have a beautiful curvacious figure. She talks about her weight a lot since I've started exercising a lot and dieting. Her cousin is very tiny like my Sister-In-Law. I worry a lot that me having issues with my weight is going to cause her to worry about it. Her bio mom is also overweight as well. I also worry about her comparing herself to her cousin. I know her maternal grandmother made a comment that she hoped my DSD would get have my Sister In Laws figure. That's not gonna happen. I want her to be okay with the beautiful body she will have. I wish I had been.

Weightless said...

I agree <3 and she is beautiful, she must get it from her momma ;-)

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