For the longest time I have identified myself as the fat girl.
The only time that I haven't thought that way was right around my wedding, when I was the lightest I've been as an adult, still weighing in at about 175 pounds.
I've just come to accept that I will never like what I see in the mirror.
I will always try to wear clothes that hide my body.
I will always try to take attention away from my weight.
But I'm really tired of trying to find worth in what everyone else sees.
I really want to look in the mirror and be content with the reflection.
Even if its not for me, I need to set a good example for her.
Because she listens, and she watches, and she remembers.
And I would hate for her to struggle with body image issues the way that I have.
I think that she is so beautiful, in every single way.
And I need to know how to convince her of that, every day. How to encourage her to stand tall despite her height, how to show her kindness through her actions as well as her smile, and how to respect herself first, in every situation.
Because I don't really have enough experience with self love and respect to pass on any good habits.
So I'll try to learn. One day at a time.
For her sake.